Published: 05.01.2026
I am back in Bangalore today, and I did a 32-minute session, which is just four minutes short of the longest I have done so far. Starting tomorrow, I plan to get back to increasing the duration by a minute every day, till I get to 60 minutes. Today’s session felt decent overall. I did not really drift off or feel drowsy for most of it. There were still plenty of thoughts, but the body felt more awake than it has on some other days. Most of the thinking today revolved around day/week/life planning. This seems to be my most common thought pattern so far. I was thinking about productivity, about what I will do tomorrow, what next week might look like, and how to build some kind of system that holds all of it together.
I sense that these thoughts come from a place of wanting to feel better. In a way, it feels like I am quietly dreaming about all the things I might do - the inputs - that could eventually lead to a better version of myself as the output. I am not sure how useful this kind of thinking really is, especially in moments where the intention is to do nothing at all. Still, it feels worth spending some time reflecting on why the mind keeps returning here, and what it is actually trying to solve.