Published: 07.01.2026
Today’s session lasted 38 minutes, but it was heavily disrupted by external noise and movement. At the beginning of the session, the dogs were in the room and kept licking and scratching me. Not long after I settled in, the doorbell rang - first the maid arrived, and then the gardener. Each time, I had to get up to open the door and then return to the practice. Later, Divya returned from the gym and started talking to the dogs downstairs. All of this added up to a constant stream of interruptions that made it more difficult than usual to find a sense of stillness.
Even so, I did not drift into sleep at all today. There were many thoughts though, and most of them seemed to revolve around the theme of desire. Yesterday, I listened to a podcast conversation between Kapil Gupta and Naval Ravikant, where they were discussing aspects of pure happiness. One idea in particular stayed with me. They suggested that happiness, at its core, is freedom from the mind, and that the mind is rarely free because it is constantly caught in desire, always trying to solve problems or improve something. That thought and questions around it kept resurfacing during the session. Where does desire come from in the first place? Why does it exist at all? How does one tell whether a desire is useful or not? If happiness lies in freedom from desire, then what is one supposed to aspire to? The moment you aspire to something, does that not immediately become another form of desire? There feels like a real paradox here. I do not yet understand it clearly, but it is something I want to sit with and explore more deeply.