Published: 16.01.2026
I did a 31-minute session today. I hadn’t slept well last night, and I had a sense that if I pushed for a longer session, I would probably spend most of it feeling drowsy. So I decided to keep it slightly shorter. And surprisingly, while I was a bit drowsy, that wasn’t the most prominent thing I noticed during the session.
Today, I chose to focus on the body, on really feeling it from the inside. This was inspired by something I read in The Power of Now earlier in the day, and I felt curious enough to try it directly. Whenever I direct my attention inward like this, I notice a subtle sense of warmth and vibrance along my upper spine, along with a gentle tingling in my arms, legs, and even my forehead. The more I stay connected to this inner sense of the body, the harder it becomes for the mind to wander. Distractions still arise after a while, but I can hold my attention on the inner body for much longer than I usually can on the breath. And honestly, I really like how it feels, to be so aware of the body from within. Lately, I have been thinking about something else inspired by my recent reading. I’ve started to notice a pattern in how I interpret distraction. When my attention drifts, I sometimes explain it to myself by saying that the egoic mind is resisting its own death, and that it is trying to pull attention back toward itself. But then another thought arises. The one making this explanation, the one narrating that the egoic mind is resisting, is itself the mind. That raises a strange question - how can the mind talk about the death of itself, while still being the one doing the talking? It seems like the ego makes up a large part of the mind’s contents, but the mind clearly holds much more than just that.